First Visit

Dad and I went to the SH yesterday to see Grace. Brother and Sister stayed home. Sister had been sick the day before so we didn't want to take her. Brother is still struggling with everything, so he didn't want to go. Also we didn't know the process for visiting yet, as far as checking in and how it would go. It was just easier for the two of us to go. We went down and took some food to share. I guess the food is pretty bad there. The joke is the kids get better because they hate the food so much. When we got there the staff came to let us in and Grace was with her. It was so nice to be able to wrap my arms around her. That felt so good. When she is happy she is truly the sweetest kid you'll ever meet. Trust me I can't tell you how many people are shocked to her what we have been through with her. I always embrace and enjoy the good moments with her. Really we never know how long they will last. She can flip the switch with out warning. For the first part of our visit we had to be in a conference room. We ate our food and visited. She was telling us things she did and didn't like. We tried to keep it positive. After we ate Grace taught us a couple of card games that were really fun. It was so fun to laugh and giggle with her. She really is a fun person to be around. We stayed for about 2 and half hours with her. She defiantly started to get upset when we were leaving. It was hard to say good bye. This for her is still so new. She asks on the phone to come home. I hate having to say no. I hate doing things because it is for their own good. I am grateful for the hope that this will work. I am grateful for the peace and normalcy I can give to Brother and Sister for now. I am grateful for my sweet husband who is by my side when these hard decisions have to be made. I am grateful for forgiveness so we can move on from all these hard things. I am grateful for eternal families so that i have some perspective of what all of this is for. I am grateful for Love because it can conquer all. I am grateful that Grace is ours, because I was prepared to be this child's Mom and to help her overcome these challenges. I am grateful for the many friends and family that have supported us endlessly through this difficult time. I am grateful for for the love and support we get from everyone who reads this.