Group meeting

Last Wednesday Dad and I went to have a counseling session with Grace and her therapist. (We have decided also to refer to the facility that Grace is in as Hogwarts.) Seeing how Hogwarts is so far from home we took Brother and Sister with us. It was really nice to see all of our kids together even for just a little while. Brother and Sister sat outside in the hall for most of the meeting. Dad and I were really happy with how Grace's counselor was interacting with Grace. There were things that he was doing that we had spent two months trying to do in the last place. We really feel like Hogwarts is a great place for Grace. We were also able to meet with Grace's new doctor. She is so nice. Everyone really seems to be so in tune with Grace and her needs. I am very grateful that we have Grace is an environment that she can really learn and grow. We all were able to talk about what our plans and goals are for Grace to work on so that she can come home soon. I feel like our concerns are very much being addressed and heard. Again progress over the last place Grace was at. Of course that hardest part of the visit was having to say good bye. Grace was very upset and wrapped her arms around me and wouldn't let go. I finally had to say to her that if she didn't let go of me that we would not be able to come and visit over the weekend. It took her about a second and then she let go. It is so hard to be the mom and to put on the happy face. I wanted to just hold her and cry. I want to scream why can't I make this all better? I know it won't do any good, but I still want to do it. I think that is just the mom in me. I wake up every morning and I know I am a mom. However there are times like these that I feel the mom in me coming out. I think its that instinct to protect my children. I have to remember that having Grace at Hogwarts is what's best for her and all of us right now. It will also make bringing her home that much sweeter when she is ready. One day at a time, again!!!